No words can be harder to read than those by a mother from the suicide note of her son.
The tears flowed afterwards from Sadie Keogh. The emotion and pain remains over eight years since her son Lewis took his own life, riddled by gambling debts he kept hidden from those who loved him.
At Stormont on Tuesday, Sadie, with husband Pete by her side, helped launch a new campaign by Gambling With Lives, a charity set up to give a vital message to young people in schools across Northern Ireland, where the rate of gambling addiction remains, by some way, the highest in the UK.